FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr's Xanga

2 day 15 hours....

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 03:54:00 GMT

I miss you a lot. I hope you know that.

Us is a reality we don't have to contemplate now.

You are what matters most in this moment.

I've fallen head over heels for you...

I miss my scooby.

bang.

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

WeRd:

Lets take it slow
(So slow)
Anywhere you wanna go
Baby for you
I lay it all on the line
You ought to know
(Ought to know)
Boy I ain't got nowhere to go
I'll give it to you
Only to you
We gotta take it real slow...

Caution, Contents are fragile.

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 08:23:39 GMT

Hello 2009!

This year hopes to be a year of better and new things for everyone. I just hope its better in general, one could always hope for that right? With first semester now behind me I can only hope to do better seeing how I didn't do as great as I would have expected myself to. Currently I'm bleh, not a good way to start off the year but it can only go up from here and maybe I'm still holding on to some 2008 blehness. Emotionally 2008 was a roller coaster that I really didn't ask to be put on. I don't know right now I'm just fragile, the gusts of wind that are blowing outside can blow and break me into a million little pieces and I could blend in with the snow that has blanketed the ground. I just want to be emotionally stable for the time being and stop having all these thoughts running through my head but I know that it won't stop.

Je voudrais....
.....je voudrais....
..........je ne sais pas....

I just want to go back to Boston already to kick start this year but I know once it starts, there's no stopping it and we'll be halfway through with the semester before we notice what has happened around us. Let me not think too far ahead because then my head will just start spinning and I'm dizzy as it is right now. >.O Let me think about the now and how I'm going to fix me, though i'm not broken. More like strengthen me.

Do you know where your heart is
Do you think you can find it
Did you trade it for something, somewhere
Better just to have it
Do you know where your love is
Do you think that you lost it
You felt it so strong but nothings
Turned out how you want it
Well bless my soul
You`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold
Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you know what your fate is
And are you trying to shake it
You`re doing your best and
You`re best look
You`re praying that you`ll make it
Well bless my soul
You`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold

Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Said all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Better than you have it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Better than you have it
Better than you have it
Said all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Said all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you know where the end is
Do you think you can see it
Until you get there
Go on
Go ahead and scream it
Just say

One republic is awesome. lol.

Bang.

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

WeRd: 'o9 so fine.

Like the sands of an hourglass...

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 08:05:22 GMT

So I haven't visited this old friend in quite sometime. Since convocation actually. A lot has changed since then. I grew into my place at BC and I love it there.

Upon talking to my new home skillet Adrian (he refuses to acknowledge it ) I was reflecting on my relationship with you. It was such a rollercoaster ride. I would do it all over again though, but I think I've moved on from who I was then. I've grown in ways that I could not imagine. I've reflected on so much on this last day of 2008 and how much has changed since I was a freshman in HS. It's great and scary. I thought the JE was gonna be something that would last and stand the test of time. But obviously not. I still have Camille and Faye but everyone else has faded into the background. Lea, Vincent, Riza Mai and Stephen...We all fell out of touch at different times but the fact of the matter is that we fell out of touch. I guess that was our fate as a group...I wish things ended up differently but at the same time I don't.

I've been walking
In the same way as I did
Missing out
The cracks in the pavement
And tutting my heel
And strutting my feet
"Is there anything
I can do for you dear?
Is there anyone I can call?"
"No and thank you, please Madam
I ain't lost, just wandering"

Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh, the people I've met

Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of this world
Are the wonders of my world

I like it in the city
When the air
Is so thick and opaque
I love to see everybody
In short skirts
Shorts and shades
I like it in the city
When two worlds collide
You get the people
And the government
Everybody taking
Different sides

Shows that
We ain't gonna stand shit
Shows
That we are united
Shows
That we ain't gonna take it
Shows
That we ain't gonna stand shit
Shows that we are united

Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met

Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of this world
Are the wonders of my world

Bang.

WeRd: Though we're not together, you're not forgotten. Though you're not here, you are missed.

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

>.O

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 11:24:08 GMT

Ok so today is the first time since I started school where I thought about not going in. I used to do that all the time senior year and just appear for one class then go home again. Oh well. Lol. Convocation is tonight, is there anyway that we can skip that? I didn't even read that book we were supposed to read for it. FUN! I should skip out to go to the Asian Caucus BBQ.

Je ne c'est pas. I care so much for you but i dont think you know how much I do care. I know what I did three years ago really sucked but I'm not that person....I've told you this, now only if you could believe me.

Bizzounce....time for me to go to Calculus. T_T.

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

Bang.

weRd: 3....2....1...now fall in my arms now.

Beauty of walking away

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 02:40:36 GMT

You're pointless, you irk me, yet I can't get enough. We bump each other in the halls, no words are exchanged, do you know that it was me? I think not.

To magazine girl, (xP) haha.....Don't worry I'll help you with your double turns some how, i'll catch you.

Fuck you spencer.

=D i dont know if i mean that.

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young
For speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They're in their own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying
So i say you'll..

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home
Oooh

I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain't as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I'm just dreaming out loud
Until then

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh

Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
So hear this now

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

Maybe one of you is the better half of me....maybe thats to be found in B.C.

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

weRd: Hero or Heroine, which one is it?

Mind wanders on

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 02:49:29 GMT

ARGGGH Its like 1130 and i haven't finished my outline. Maybe because im on Xanga. lol. whoever said being a second semester senior rocks wasn't stupid like me and decided to take AP Calc, and AP Eco. That was retardation on my part. I have like 8 pages left and I'M ZONING OUT. WOOOOOO.

So im here thinking of you and thinking of you. Is there a difference? YES! big one haha lol. Talking to you is one fucking confusing shit because you're a jerk and an idiot for acting the way you do but I <3 you anyways. And you make me feel fuzzy because you're just freakin adorable. I still didn't get that lollipop you promised me.

"I Like The Feelin' You're givin' Me Just Hold Me Baby And I'm In Ecstasy"

so yeah anyways, i've been in a boys like girls, one republic, Michael Jackson, Natasha Bedingfield mood lately, thats all ive been listening too the past 4 days. Quite awesome.

HERO HEROINE!! haha

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

love that song...btw..you broke me apart.

I'm still hopeful...

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

weRd: I think i am bipolar. (thanks richard =P)

Shot Down? Psh Fuck it Im bulletproof

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 04:46:27 GMT

So yeah Things didn't go quite as I expected on Thursday then again there was a blessing in disguise?

Me: Hey tine Is it normal to have a person to have more than 5 comments on your last 10 recent comments on your FB?
Tine: hm...its not bad but that is something
Me: hm...::checks facebook::

lol. That was random yet needed. Last night (Thursday) was horrible i was so BLEH EMO UGH! haha lol Whatevs I got over it for the most part? <-- Question mark. So yeah, interesting new prospect on the horizon, time to move on. haha xP. I hit rock bottom, time to kick that habit, leave it behind. Some of you know what that means, others don't oh well sucks to be them right?

"I like this one"

haha lol. =P
I'm nuts, justine confirmed it.

So yeah anyways I haven't felt this good since like last week, i had a very emo-esque week but S'all good now hah lol. =D
Whatevs right?

BOMB DIGGITY. i'm random.

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

Sign 15

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 03:55:44 GMT

Sign 15,

i find something of yours that you left in my car. curiously enough, I asked you if you had them yesterday while we were walking and you said no you left them at home. They smell like you , not quite sure what that smell is though but I know its you.

weRd: You're my last thought at night and my first thought in the morning.

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

Sign 14?

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 17:15:59 GMT

I had an AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG day yesterday! and parts of today. I would elaborate on it but there are just too many crazy awesome things that happened lol .I will say I threw up for no apparent health related reason haha lol.

So yeah..Sign 14? What number did we say that the signs had to build up to?

We went from 7-13 in one night and this morning i find 14. oO lol

FiNaL_fAnTaSizEr

=]

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 04:24:54 GMT

You're messed up.